Wednesday, April 1, 2009


I am beginning to wonder what's the point of it all. I mean, I keep doing all I can to entertain everyone and have fun, and all I get is nothing to show for it. Sure-- there are a few of you who back me up, show support, but there are some of you who just don't really care either way if I live, surf, or die, so sometimes I ask just WTF is the bloody point anyway?
Plus all the drama... I wonder how many of you really believe me or it. I feel like the person who runs around trying to tell everyone that there are aliens among us and nobody believes them...even if it is in printed proof all over the internet. Whatever. I know who I am, and what I stand for...and I know I am misunderstood and unappreciated. But I just don't, no matter how hard I try, have the numbers to back up my progress, or delve into the fields I choose to...too small to be considered BBW to make a dent, too big to be considered straight-sized, and who likes a full-figured screamer in horror anyway--or in dance music/hip-hop? All's they want is big boobs and a skinny body...blah blah meh. I just don't care anymore.
And neither do you, so fxck it...I'm done. I guess I'll shut down my sites's gonna take time as there are so many of them. I'm sure this will make several of you very happy. I know when I'm licked and certain folx can have their monopoly...I'm not a threat anymore.
I've been thinking of continuing my family anyway...I'm w/ someone who loves me very much, and I him, so maybe we'll get started on that. We've been thinking of finding a way to go move out-of-state...he's got a few contacts all over since he's a in the would be so nice to go there and start making cubs and get to starting all the fxck over, away from the drama and the fakes and phonies and poseurs and turncoats. Where I don't have to get all these veiled insults by people on my pages, and don't have to deal w/ people who seem to have your back one minute, then on the word of a big ol' hater just drop off the face of the earth and don't deal w/ you anymore...people who don't give me a shot and check out who I really am, not what some disgruntled rival thinx of me. People who keep mistaking me for the "other'...
People just don't have balls these days... I find a new life prospect...and new and better ways to punk yer asses yet again.

Are you kidding? I'm not giving up SHXT!!! I AIN'T GOING NOWHERE!!
Sorry to disappoint you haters...I'm here for good...claws planted...HAHAHA
Hope your April Fools' was...interesting, LOL